the cracks on your smile make it impossible to decipher something legible

mood: crazy

music: BSB - How Did I Fall In Love With You

you are,
for contradiction's sake,
everything i remember,
that i swore i'd forget..




two steps removed from everything i thought i knew
there's no remedy
i see your face in every single thing i do
you change me
your laugh intoxicating
one touch and i'm negating
everything around 
take me and i'm yours
i only want you anymore
i kiss the ground



whilst on the way to work this morning, i suddenly thought of weddings. 
i don't really know what i want, but i know i want one thing.
i want bsb's *how did i fall in love with you* to be played, somehow or other, during my wedding.
extra points if my future husband sings that to me. LOL.
why am i thinking of weddings now?

location: in my room

mood: anxious

music: The Truth - David Cook

So.. I was at one of my clients' with the audit team, and suddenly someone asks, *eh when's our dnd ah?* and I immediately said *well, it was Oct last year*.. and it just hit me. It's ALREADY july. it's only 2 more months to october. that's pretty damn soon. I can't believe I've been working for a year already. Time sure flies by.

It's been barely a week into the second year and I'm starting to feel the load of the heavier responsibilities already. Seniors are calling left, right and center asking if I'm willing to do this/that job. I guess I can safely say that my honeymoon is gonna be over pretty soon. I've been very blessed this past year, to have landed the jobs that I had. Great working hours, wonderful people to work with..  *thus earning my slack status* I was one of the lucky few I guess. Until now I have yet to experience the horrors of audit, although I've heard countless horror stories from my colleagues. Guess I'll be exposed to a few situations in the coming year. 

I'm been booked back on most of my big jobs, so I guess that is a good thing. Experience is always a good thing. I really gotta work on my client relationship. I have a lot to learn, still.

Friday also made me realise how productive I can be when I'm not distracted by DC. I've always been efficient I guess, just that along the way, I got a little distracted. haha.. Shall work on that, for now.

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DC-wise, the fanaticism has not died down at all. So much for thinking it'll die when AI ends. In fact, I think it's worse than ever now. He's getting pretty regular airplay on the radios here with ABMB and TOML and I can't help but smile each time I hear him on the radio, cos it reminds me of how far he has come, within a span of a few months. And I can't help but feel proud of him and knowing that I've been supporting him ever since he was not even the frontrunner in AI. I remember showing youtube vids of his performances to everyone (who would refuse to watch) ahahaha.. I believed in him then and I still believe in him now. 

*I see your face in every single I do.. you change me* - The Truth, David Cook

How true is that. The littlest things will remind me of DC. Things people say, things people do.. I've got it really really bad I guess.

(and by the way, if anyone wanna listen to Analog Heart, feel free to ask from me. I'm willing to distribute it to anyone who's willing to listen. And why wouldn't you want to? It's awesome!!!)

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One more thing I need to work on - Time Management! I think I should start drafting a timetable to follow so I can start studying for my CFA. I am seriously neglecting that. Someone pls motivate me to study!!! Study buddy, anyone?