the cracks on your smile make it impossible to decipher something legible

You can't just act as if nothing happened. Acknowledge it, damnit!

"Where did you hide yourself
For these searchlights are growing dim
I know this isn't much to recollect
Better now to close this puppet show
And say that it's the end"

Until then, don't expect me to try and be more friendly.

"You made me fall forever
With no end in sight
When everything around is broken
Could you say that this felt right?"

something really funny happened today.

as i was packing up to leave the office, i received a call from my bro.
he had apparently locked his car keys in the boot!
hahahahaha i think i laughed for about 5 mins thinking about the ridiculousness of that situation.

so yeah i had to cab to west coast macs so that i could unlock the boot and get the car started. -_-
thank goodness i carry my car keys around all the time.

anyway, applications are open for the uk n aussie ca program.

still thinking if i should even apply. what are the chances?

and do i really want to go?

Oh why, hello there! Yes, I've decided to move my blog again. This time around, this will be sort of semi-personal I guess. My last one just had too many things that I couldn't share with everyone that I didn't see the point of directing anyone there. I ended up making almost all of the entries on there private/friends-only anyway. And I also updated about once in a blue moon. So.. erm, yeah, hence the decision to move to another one.

so what's with the new userid? As if it couldn't be any more obvious. sheesh.. haha.

Haha.. anyway, back to me and my life.

Life's really pretty much stagnant now. It's like my life is very divided into work and weekends. Weekdays come and all I do is focus on work, work and work. (of course, AI provides a very welcome break on weds and thurs) And then weekend rolls around, and it's always meeting friends for dinner/lunch/shopping/blading. and this cycle repeats itself over and over again. Am i getting tired of it already? 

In the line of work that I am in, you meet new people on an almost weekly basis. You never know who you're going to meet or where you're going to be the next day. And in the course of all these, you end up making new friends (acquaintances?) and sharing different things with different people.

But I realised, I keep getting this question more and more nowadays --> Are you attached? Do you have a bf?. I guess it's pretty natural. At my age, it's the most natural time to get married. Lots of my friends (well, not really those in my closest circle) are already engaged and there are a few who are already married. But come to think about it, even IF I am attached now, I don't think that I'm ready for marriage yet.

In a marriage, you are not only taking care of yourself, but also of your partner. And when the babies come in, you have to take care of a few more people altogether. I dunno if I'm being selfish or what, but I don't think that I'm done taking care of myself yet. I think marriage requires a certain level of maturity on  both parties. And I certainly don't think I've reached that level of maturity yet.

I need to get my priorities straight sometimes. I need to set aside more time for my cfa studies. I'm not spending enough time on that. I need to tidy up my room. I need to tidy up my life.

Ok enough rambling for now. I dont even think that half of what I said above makes sense. Oh well, just ignore everything that I said. Kinda in a blog-vomit mood right now. Haha.. blog-vomit. what a word.

Your laugh intoxicating
One touch and I'm negating everything around
Take me and I'm yours
I only want you anymore
I kiss the ground
- The Truth - DC